Almost 4 Weeks After My Seizure And Burst Aneurysm

Decided to post about it just for myself, but if you go ahead and comment. Excuse my mess ups in words and typing, I'm still not 100% which pisses me off.

I was doing school with the kids. Reading to them. Had William read a bit and then I took over. My words got fuzzy on the page, blurry. I tried to shake it off. Then I saw a rainbow star in my vision but it was more like a 8 point star and was flashing. According to Zadie at that point I started looking back at the off TV. I don't remember because after the star, the next thing I remember is being in the helicopter. I guess I had a seizure, fell and hit the granite table, bounced (according to William) and then hit the tile floor. ~There are disadvantages to being married to a guy in the stone industry. It looks so good but hurts so bad!~ William tried to pick me up, which at this point he's 6'1 and over 160 pounds. Much bigger and stronger than his mom. He saw the blood, put me down (I think he dropped me in a panic) ran to my cell to call 911. He was nervous, panicky but got them there. Thank goodness our firehouse/emt's are in vision sight. As they wheeled me out I was arguing with them (apparently don't remember) about my kids and where were my kids and leave me alone I need to take care of my kids, I'm fine. I'm sure knowing me when I'm mad, there were cuss words. So even not all there, my kids are first on my mind. According to oldest who got the younger ones way so they didn't see all that and hubby, all the neigbors home were out watching and I was screaming my idiot ass off about my kids.

Right after W got off with 911, he called hubby who was 40 minutes away. Probably the fastest 40 minutes he drove and could have gotten tickets/accidents he didn't care. He called my mom. She was on the way to the house because no one had told my kids where they were flying me to. There are a lot of hospitals they could hae flown me to.

That's where I really come to. I look up at this guy. I know I'm on a helicopter. I can feel it, hear it and I'm strapped down. Where are you taking me? Scottsdale Osborn. "Isn't there a closer hospital you can take me to?" "You need to go there, it's the best." I know it's the damn best, both of my folks were there many times and so was I along time ago. I think my next question was where's my kids. "They're ok, rural metro staying until your husband gets there." NO I NEED TO BE THERE. I think at that point either my head quit or they gave me a knockout drug. Probably knock this crazy bitch out.

Next thing I remember is they are cutting off my Tony Stewart shirt (MY AWESOME TONY SHIRT!) and now I'm mad. Then some nurse takes out my earrings I haven't had out in over 8 years. Do you have to? Yes. FU. When was the last time you had a tetinus shot? A what? before grade school and they hurt so no. Well we have to. bitch. I'm still on the fricking hard borad with the stupid neck brace that is hurting me. (Too big)

Finally Mom is there which would take her at least 20 minutes to get to me since she was almost to my house. I guess Anthony had to answer to many medical insurance questions before he could see me. i'm really not sure. Just remember mom. Cat scans, x rays...get me off this fing board. My back and neck hurt so bad I want to kill someone. More tests, more Iv's. KILL ME PLEASE!

Then I guess I go to ICU. Kinda don't remember all of that either. Remember mom sitting there and me asking the nurse where I go potty. Bedpan or cath. Cath me and I'll knock you out. Ain't going there again! EVER! They bring me a liquid diet which is liquid but I still throw it up. Can't see my babies, can't talk to them, tv sucks and they check on you ever 2 hours. LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE!

My lovely nurse does wash all the blood out of my hair which I have no clue how much it is.

another day in ICU. Worst patient, feisty since my daddy. Probably couldn't wait til I got moved.

They took weird cat scans in the middle of the night while I was in ICU where it left gunky sticky stuff in my hair, and then charged me extra for the middle of night LIKE I HAD A CHOICE!

After moved upstairs, needed an MRI. Scheduled for the day so I told A don't bring the kids cuz that's exactly when it will be. Ok I can't spell the law but it's that crazy law you blame on bad stuff happening. My MRI was at 1 in the morning. Not my choice but still charged for after hours...... Could have spent the day with my babies (and mom) who were still freakout and needed to see me.

Next day, you're going home today. well let's go! 4PM finally I get to go home. FOUR PM. I have to get prescriptions. $. Thank goodness for AZ's community marriage state so he can take my licence and get my drugs.

4 weeks later no painkillers other than OTC which piss off still hurts like HELL. Hence KIMBER is cranky. But Bengay, oh yeah. I forgot how much i loved you. I haven't been sleeping and he got me that and see ya next week!